Offer more than you Receive

Peace and Love Family! So I wrote this piece as I was planning my move away from Florida about 6 months ago and never got around to posting it. Now feels like an even better time to post as I prep to move again. I love the way Spirit reintroduces us to the past states of mind and being we were in during critical times. Its a trip how much being receptive really defined my return to KC. It just shows that the insight during these moment never stops being helpful. With that said, here is the unedited piece I made earlier in the year. I hope it uplifts.

My life...

My life at the moment sometimes feels like a series of mini-quakes that rattle

everything I plan for, forward think about and ideally prefer. Literally everyday it feels like I'm putting fallen knick knacks back on the shelf and sweeping up glass only to have to do it again the next day. 

It's not that bad honestly. 

Its a challenge but a refreshing shift from the routine I was following: work, sleep, repeat. For anyone who has discovered real evolution of the self as a daily pursuit you dig what I'm talking about. Here's what prompting this idea. It's time for me to move again.  I've lived in South Florida for the past 2 years...and I've seen enough.  My options for next stops are set and one tops the list: Home. Kansas City, Mo. The place I was born and raised. In a convo with a real good friend my apprehension about going home surfaced. The thought came and I shared it:  I feel like I'm always offering more than I receive in return when I'm home. The more I think on it, I don't believe that to be all together true and, what's more, I'm not sure there is any other way to live.

As far as what feels like the ground shifting beneath me, that is making me more prone to deal with the shifts of life (perceived as instability) rather than trying to pretend it's not happening.  Spirit has guided me to make some decisions that, to say the least, I wonder why I made.  Trusting the path is not easy, especially when it feels like its constantly moving under you....mini-quaking every minute. 

It's not impossible though and it's not the offering part that is hard to do. 

It's the receiving.

Uncertainty, Transparency, Trust. When we don't surrender to these ideas (among others) we hinder the abundant opportunities to receive. We make offering feel like something we can only do ever so often without somehow being offended or depleted.

Home has always had a way of teaching me this lesson but I can be hardheaded. Beautifully, though, I know I return home more capable of and willing to receive than I have ever been and that what makes what we have to offer the world around us even more potent.